I Can Make It Through The Rain...

October was quite the month. I am still constantly thinking about what I've lost and what my family has lost and how badly everybody is hurting. I dream about it and then when I wake up it's all I can think about. I just want to be able to think about something happy. 

After the things that have happened and the things that haven't happened and the people that just aren't going to happen for me anymore I am even more grateful for home and my friends in the mitten. This past week being back in Chicago hasn't been terrible because I've kept myself busy running errands and planning my birthday a month in advance. The rest of this year will be nice as well because of the multiple trips to Michigan to be with friends and family and their trips here to see me. All last week and still this week when I think about doing something or trying to find a friend to hang out with I just think back and compare it to Halloween weekend. Even with it's tragedies, my friends managed to make it absolutely amazing for me. It was extremely hard to get on the train and return to Chicago. 

My room is currently decked out in Christmas decorations because I love Christmas that much! I am counting down the days until I am home for Christmas for two full weeks, even though I will be home for Thanksgiving before that! 

I am listening to nothing but DMB right now because in just 11 days I will be in Gaylord at the Cabin with some of the most amazing people in the world including my best friend and my favorite person to get a hug from and to cheer me up. I am so so blessed to have all of these people in my life. Whatever it is that I have done, whatever I have created for myself to be able to enjoy these people... Here's to hoping that I can continue down this path with them by my side.