Fat Girl's Guide to Life: Get Skinny. Nobody likes you the way you are. End of story.
I sat at the computer for a couple of hours yesterday contemplating a new track for my workout playlist. No joke, I was going to record myself on Garage Band calling myself mean names and just overall making myself feel bad. Nice yeah?
After a rough couple weeks of attending multiple school recitals, having fun and being lazy in The Mitten, playing with David and Ellie, being bored, and having major problems with the whole eating thing or not eating as it actually was, I just need a break! I have obviously been sick of being a fat girl for some many many years now but for some reason the motivation factor doesn't come all that easy for me. I have nobody to workout with and nobody who is willing to go through this whole thing with me. I am doing it all alone and it's hard. I find myself on the computer at crazy hours of the night looking up weight loss solutions, healthy eating stuff, activity calorie counters, and everything else you could think about getting skinny. For the past 2 days I have map-quested all of my destinations and walked everywhere. I then took the distances I walked and the times I walked them in and figured out my speed and the of course the calories I burned in that time. I love math, but that is just too much for me to do multiple times a day just to lose some meat.
BAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!
Next step in the quest: Workout twice a day instead of just once, 8 week challenge/support group starting wednesday or sunday, minimal eating even more so than normal. The End. Again.
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