Oh, oh how could you do it? Oh I, I never saw it coming. Oh, oh I need the ending. So, why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Reflecting...

I was looking through the bulletins on Myspace, something I rarely do, and after reading through maybe 10 different questionnaires I realized... they all ask about past relationships and their current status. Typically they are answered with things like "My ex was an asshole", "Our relationship ended on good terms", or "We both needed a break and are just friends now". I then though about my answers to all of these types of questions. I've only been technically broken up with once and it was more like an, "I fucked up and since you are away I guess I will stick with my mistake." Same person, second time, just stopped calling and a little bird and some investigation brought it to my knowledge that instead of actually calling and breaking up with me or waiting 2 weeks until I went home to visit he just started a new relationship. Now this question about how things are now with the ex... well my answer is always that there is no relationship with him because there's a point when you are around each other and ignoring it and then there's the point we have always come to where I show up and he leaves and I am somewhere and he makes an excuse not to show up and of course my favorite where I am not even in the state and still most of the drama revolves around us and the fact that some friends are on my side, some are on his, and some are on mine but pretend to be on his because of their friendship.

I just have to laugh a little when I think about all of this. I think it through, get a little upset and wonder what is wrong with me that this has happened over and over, and then I laugh when I realize it has nothing to do with me.

I have i tunes on shuffle and this Paramore song came on:

When It Rains

And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Take your time.
Take my time.

Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.

Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

You can take your time, take my time. 

I listen to it and think that for the most part it fits. I listen a little closer and take it all in a little deeper and I realize...

I SAW IT COMING ALL ALONG.