It's Like I've Been Robbed Of Something I Once Was In My Childhood Memories...

Bids Wanted: Construction Crew for Impractical Task

If you are willing to try the impossible this job is for you! 

-Chicago needs to be relocated next to Owosso, MI.

-While relocating Clarke's, steal me a menu please.

-Everything in Chicago, especially Target and Starbucks, must be moved.

Also, if you are a cute Asian boy and can help me make some cute Asian babies you will be given a significant bonus.

I Like It I Love It I Want Some More Of It...

Yes - No - Maybe So?

Yes

Volunteering

Winter Weather

Taking Pictures with my new baby!

Trips to the mitten

Christmas bedroom

Purple shoes

Packages from mommy

Mommy's coming/Birthday countdown

Katelynn will be at Thanksgiving!

Christmas tunes!!!!

Cabin weekend

Hugs from Kendra

Mike Compton!

No

Grouchy 5 year olds

Discontinued Polaroid film

Missing the Lighting at the Magnificent Mile

Having to wear socks

Rain when I have to walk everywhere... where is the snow?!

Does nobody need a weekend or morning sitter?!!

Time to plan Christmas movie list and Dec. fun with D and Ellie

Have t give up Dave for Christmas music

Maybe So

Bologna Sammies every day...

Sleeping on the Amtrak

Wearing PJ bottoms to bed

Knitting

Back on board the skinny train!

Drinking water

Got sucked into Twilight...

Mother, father please explain to me how this rare world has come to be...

"Being normal is vastly overrated."

-Aggie Cromwell

 Halloweentown

I don't know about you but I totally agree. I tell David and Ellie everyday how extremely rad I am and when they tell me I'm crazy I think about good ol' Aggie and the goings on of Halloweentown and how our world isn't all that different. Nobody is interested in normalcy... 

Am I rightside up or upside down?

When I started this blog I had decided to plan it out a little more. I didn't want all of the questionnaires and random rants that filled my livejournal. It's time  started planning! You can expect from me, some new installments recurring each week or once monthly! 

With no luck getting new friends, someone to come party with me, or a new ASL teacher for Columbia College I will continue to try to make my life a better life by creating and posting Classified Ads for your entertainment...

Who Needs A Mommy??

Are you between the ages of 2 and 7? Are you in need of a parent? Most importantly, do you look like a Gosselin/are you Asian? 

Calling all Asian children: You are adorable and I want you to be mine!!!! Send me an email, picture, and adoption terms at aznobzezzion@tlcjunky.com

I Can Make It Through The Rain...

October was quite the month. I am still constantly thinking about what I've lost and what my family has lost and how badly everybody is hurting. I dream about it and then when I wake up it's all I can think about. I just want to be able to think about something happy. 

After the things that have happened and the things that haven't happened and the people that just aren't going to happen for me anymore I am even more grateful for home and my friends in the mitten. This past week being back in Chicago hasn't been terrible because I've kept myself busy running errands and planning my birthday a month in advance. The rest of this year will be nice as well because of the multiple trips to Michigan to be with friends and family and their trips here to see me. All last week and still this week when I think about doing something or trying to find a friend to hang out with I just think back and compare it to Halloween weekend. Even with it's tragedies, my friends managed to make it absolutely amazing for me. It was extremely hard to get on the train and return to Chicago. 

My room is currently decked out in Christmas decorations because I love Christmas that much! I am counting down the days until I am home for Christmas for two full weeks, even though I will be home for Thanksgiving before that! 

I am listening to nothing but DMB right now because in just 11 days I will be in Gaylord at the Cabin with some of the most amazing people in the world including my best friend and my favorite person to get a hug from and to cheer me up. I am so so blessed to have all of these people in my life. Whatever it is that I have done, whatever I have created for myself to be able to enjoy these people... Here's to hoping that I can continue down this path with them by my side.

I just keep crying. Everywhere I go, I can't stop. People are starting to stare at my red face and puffy eyes. I just want to pet her but I can't. I can never pet her again.

No song lyrics this time...

I couldn't think of any lyrics to use as a title for this post if that tells you anything.

My love of local music was once unbeatable. After breakups and whatnot these bands have left me somewhat haunted by their music. I hear it and it bothers me. I can't help but to get upset and sometimes cry when I hear it. These songs remind me of the most amazing times of my life and of this music that I was once so in love with. I have basically just given up on local music because the pain when the bands end is sometimes unbearable. I know this sounds ridiculous but it's 100% true. That is why music is my passion. It's the one thing that can completely tear me apart and the one thing that can make me truly happy. 

I cried for a a day or so when Dennis left Arizing and the guitar player who got me so pumped about their music was gone. I cried for a number of days when Arizing broke up completely. And by a number I mean for approximately a week. Straight.  When HPK and Vega ended I didn't cry but there was a pain in my chest that comes back everytime I hear their music.

The only band I have left from my local music days is Auto Pilot. They are still together yes but they have been working on their second album for over 2 years. They posted some stuff on myspace about selling their van and some drum stuff... I decided that it's all over for me and local music. I can't take anymore breakups and I can't wait any longer in hopes of a new album.

I just logged onto myspace to read the message my brother had sent me. I scrolled down the page a bit to look at the funny bulletin titles and there it was... Auto Pilot just posted a bulletin. Two new songs are up on their page, they are still recording, the cd is scheduled to come out in November. I played the first song and was in tears before the vocals even started. My happiness at this moment cannot be measured. 

Their genre on myspace is rock/progressive/alternative. I'm not sure about that. They have the same effect on me as Vega did. The only thing I can say about the music and their shows is that they are extremely emotionally charged. It makes your heart beat and your chest will hurt because of the power of the emotions that it brings out. You literally have to experience it to understand. I can babble all day about it but it will mean nothing to you unless you have been there. Obviously the effect is ridiculously powerful because it is right here with me while I am just thinking about this new album actually being finished.

Wake up you faithless, see your heartbreak gone...

Question: Is it ok that I am volunteering more often than the Chicago Cares Coordinators? 

I spend 5 days a week playing with David and Ellie and trying to teach them about new things and further their knowledge of things they already know about. I signed up to volunteer with Chicago Cares and so far have signed up for crafts at a nursing home every other Sunday and a 2 hour saturday school type of thing at an elementary school every other Saturday. After spending last saturday with 19 really amazing kids I was bored out of my mind on Sunday and wanted another opportunity to volunteer. Today I signed up to fill in my opposite Saturdays writing with 5th-8th graders and I am looking for the opposite Sundays as well.

The feeling I get from volunteering is the same feeling I get after a successful day of learning with David and Ellie.  It's not part of my job to teach and Doug and Lisa don't expect it of me but I like to learn and the kids like to learn... so why not?! Volunteering with the kids on saturday is supposed to make school enjoyable and keep them in school for the long haul. I like knowing that I am making a difference. 

Answer: It is definitely ok to use my free time to make a difference in the lives of others.

And I know it's for me that I'm out on these streets bleeding nightly for these people I meet...

My least favorite feeling, the thing I am most afraid of, the one thing I truly hate... it's all the same. It's the same every time you ask, every time I am killing time answering one of those stupid live journal questionnaires.  I don't like feeling alone. I am afraid of being alone. I truly hate being alone. I am currently... extremely lonely. 

Yes, I have been a bit of a hermit when it comes to dollar burger night and Gossip Girl night but I'm trying to save money and I simply can't make it to these events on time without killing myself to catch the train. All of this is fixable but I'm not the one who needs to do the fixing. I've asked at least 5 times in the time I've been back to Chicago for my friends to come over and hang out. My friends have come... 0 times. I understand that I live 60 blocks away and that they can't just walk to me but it is at most a 20 minute trip to my apartment any other way they come. They don't even have to pay and ride the metra. They can use their u-passes (something that I no longer have the luxury of... $90/semester... I get to pay $75 a month for my bus pass) and bring the fucking bus! I don't think 20 minutes is too much to ask of my friends. 

I've attempted, somewhat, to make some new friends but at this stage in the game it's nearly impossible. I've noticed that all of the upperclassmen/kids in my classes commute to school from the burbs. Apparently most people leave this school in the first couple of years and I am left with all local kids that don't stay anywhere near campus. These kids from the burbs not only live far away, but they are typically living at home and have all of their high school friends, or have been friends with the same group since freshman year and are pretty exclusive. It's basically impossible to make friends at this school when you are an upperclassman and are only taking two classes (neither of which are in your major). 

This isn't just some pity party I'm throwing myself. I'm just really bothered by all of this tonight after a friend gave me the whole, "nothing is going on that I know of but I'm down for anything" followed by, " IDK I'll let you know when I'm finished doing *insert stupid activity here*" after I invited her over to my place to hang out and watch a movie or something. Could you maybe have just manned up and said, "No. I don't want to go to your apartment" ???

So yes now I am sitting here in my apartment listening to music and refreshing my email and facebook and  couple of my favorite blogs just in case something decides to change since the last refresh 0.43 seconds ago.

I need some new friends. I've said it before and I will more than likely say it ten thousand more times.

If you are reading this by some random click of the mouse (which doesn't happen here), live in Chicago, and are 2oish years old leave me a comment so we an be friends. If you are a serial killer just don't tell me. I'm just that desperate.

I remember it well, the first time that I saw your head round the door, 'cause mine stopped working...

I like that you pay attention to detail and then later remember those details. Like how it's not just some milk. It's travel milk. I like that after hearing about my plans just once you always ask, just as said plans are ending,  "How was (insert plans here)?" I guess I'm pretty lucky to have someone who can pull all of the actual information out of my usually nonsensical rambling. Even though I don't actually like it, I like the idea of all of the pictures on your phone. I feel rather special when you send me pictures from years ago, no matter how much I hate the picture itself, the concept of the whole thing is alright by me.

I guess, you're pretty alright...

Are we facing the end of all the medicine we're taking?

I think so. 

Disclaimer:  I do not now, nor have I ever, claimed to like good music. I like the music that I like and a lot of it is actually quite terrible. I am currently listening to The New Pornographers and coming up is a little Paramore so I'm definitely not above any of the music (or people) I am about to bash right now so chill the fuck out!

Columbia College's organized events/concerts have come together to end everything that Columbia tries to make reality. Seriously, first there was that lovely Big Mouth Open Mic that was basically a really terrible spin-off of 106th and Park on BET and then Friday night was Jam of the Year which was basically two DJs from Columbia playing pretty awesome music but only getting the fall out boy fans to dance... terribly... and two bands: Matt & Kim and Ludo. Matt & Kim were alright. It was your basic boyfriend and girlfriend playing drums and keys and performing their oh so cool 2 minute songs. Did I mention there was also that really ridiculous girl on drums and boy of keys thing? Let's just say that you can always pinpoint a song by The White Stripes because of the simplistic (read bad) drum playing... I had to leave early so I didn't see Ludo but by the people who were there waiting and excited to see them I can tell that my leaving was for the best.

The only way to describe the crowd is: Forever 21 meets Urban Outfitters wearing white kids who like Kanye because it's cool to do so.

I do not own anything that ties around my neck, especially not one of those stupid scarves that are soo cool to wear with anything from a western style shirt to stunna' shades, and I do not own any western wear or tank tops that my mom may have worn in the 80s. I also do not like boys who wear these things and have fashion mullets. I was most definitely not part of this little club that attended the show.

My next stop Friday night was Cat's place to get ready for the cocktail party. We got ready, met up with the rest of our group, and made our way into Kim's ghetto mexican neighborhood! The party was a ton of fun. I basically drank a few cups of bacardi limon and coke quite quickly and got nice and red cheeked. Cat's roommate Aly and I teamed up and went out and met some new people. We met Colby aka Co-Jack. He was being a bartender and making extremely strong but extremely tasty drinks. We chatted with him for quite some time. We also met Xavier aka X aka China (or China 1). We talked to him for a bit and then decided we wanted to know, "What kind of asian are you?" He told us China and then we chatted some more. We definitely forgot his name so, "China! What's your real name again?" Cue entrance of another asian boy! Walking up the front steps was another one and so of course we asked what kind of asian and real name. He was Scott... but we referred to him as... China 2!  We also met an exchange student from France named Aida. I told her multiple times that I was going to tell everybody I know that I met a girl with the same name as "that Elton John thing." She was quite nice! 

We ended up leaving the party because Cat, Kristen, Paige, and Lisa decided that they wanted to go back to the dorms to party with the boys across the hall. I was staying with Cat that night so I didn't really have a choice to stay of go. We go to the dorm and... the boys were done drinking. One of them came and chatted with us for a bit but that's all. It was a pretty spectacular night even though I wish it would've lasted longer!!

P.S... on the train ride home I was in heaven because my boyfriend (aka the boy I have been in love with since freshman year and stared at across the cafeteria and who was Jack Skellington for Halloween that same year) was on the train... I only saw him once last year and I saw him at the bookstore this year so this was my second sighting this year and I was thrilled!

Here is my night in Pictures (none were actually taken at the party... not enough time between China and China 2):

Before:

After:

Maybe I'll forgive you, maybe you'll try, we should be happy together forever, you and I...

I think/hope my relationship with my wireless is going to turn out alright. The Linksys router decided to be a jerk so we broke up rather swiftly and $200 later I am newly engaged to an Apple AirPort Extreme Base Station. So far so good!

Davedar: Out of the 89 Dave songs on my computer... I have successfully (or not so much) cut it down to 51 that I really really enjoy. Great. I will try to cut it down again and we'll see how far we get. I guessed a top 30 last time right? This time I'm hoping for a top 40. 

I smell bad and I am going to babysit some new kids tonight so I think I might make a good choice and get off my ass and shower right now... Yeah.

It's the windy city but that don't mean it's a breeze...

I'm pretty sure I went to a taping of "106th and Park" last night. Or maybe Columbia's Big Mouth Open Mic night is only attended by the BSU (black student union). There were multiple types of performances... 

• Singing (not really of the amazing sort) that was usually done to the persons track without having the vocals removed so it was excruciatingly obvious how off key the singer was.
• Spoken word of only two varieties: 

1. Lesbians talking about caressing skin with tongues.
2. Boisterous black women in camouflage one piece short suits talking about how white supremacy has made black women straighten their hair and forget that black women are beautiful and that their tits and ass were made for them and it's all that is keeping their race around... oh and it somehow jumped to caressing skin with tongues but of the hetero sort.
   

• More singing. This time in the style of a music video. This guy walked on stage with two girls. One of which as singing backing/hook vocals and the other who was there for, merely, bad acting. They sang a "love song" where the chick acted all ghetto while the other one, much prettier BTW, was stuck singing her small vocals where the stage lights didn't hit. Talk about getting snubbed.
• Finally, Rap. There were like 5 rap duos that I saw. Every single one of them rapped about... you guessed it! Chi City. I'm not even joking. Nobody said Chicago on even Chi town. Each group, as if they'd planned it, rapped about Chi City. Apparently I am not up on my windy city lingo and need to get hip to the times. My personal favorite group was the guys that go up and started off with the typical yos, yeahs, and uhs and then not so subtly went right into their song... " It's time to have sex." Not even joking, this song/rap/WTF could give 2 Live Crew's album "As Nasty as They Wanna Be", which was basically banned for sale in the US, a run for it's money. 

There were like 5 white boys with guitars and the makings of a rock band standing in the back of the room but Ashley informed me that when she arrived at 6:15, for a 6:30 show there was a line out the door of people waiting to get in and that the list of performers was full and there was another page of wait listed performers. Apparently all the white boys were on that list because they all continued to stand at the back of the room until the show ended. We left and went to get dinner at Eleven which we decided was more my scene... a jewish deli style restaurant full of kins with gauged ears and long hair. The night ended with a mighty large piece of chocolate cake... which also served as my breakfast.

Let's hope tonight's "Jam of The Year" event will be more my style. Ashley is pumped to see "Matt and Kim"who are some sort of eclectic duo from Brooklyn. Then it's off to KThro's cocktail party in my lovely dress!

Davedar: Yay new section about Dave Matthews, at least for now! I was going to do a bracket style tournament for my favorite Dave song when I realized that I had already added like 5 songs from one album to my starter list. As of today, I am listening to my 5th album and only one of those albums contributed less than 6 songs to the list. I suppose now I will just be making a rather long list of songs that I really really like and maybe doing one more cut into a list of a top 20... ok who am I kidding, top 30 probably. 

Don't let the troubles in your head steal too much time, you'll soon be dead...

I have the rest of my life to work right? But don't I have that same time to have fun and have friends? 

I think, scratch that... I KNOW I need to be more worried about working right now and saving money than about having fun and hanging out with friends. I've taken to this hermit lifestyle rather quickly since I've been living away from the city so I think i'd be alright with a second job and only a night a week with friends. I spent a couple of hours this morning before work picking up and filling out job applications for anywhere and everywhere. I filled out application for places from Starbucks to Ace Hardware... That's how bad I need a second job.

Quote to think about:

I think I should have no other mortal wants, if I could always have plenty of music. It seems to infuse strength into my limbs and ideas into my brain. Life seems to go on without effort, when I am filled with music.

-George Eliot

I have always loved this quote but I never really thought about it until this past weekend. I was sitting on the bus, soaking wet, with my target bags and I should have been miserable yes? Was I? Nope. I had my i pod blasting some music into my ears. Music that makes me feel like I could never want anything else. You're probably thinking I was listening to some majestic piece from the classical era or some Bob Dylan song with genius lyrics... Nope. Wrong again. 

I was listening to a song with these lyrics:

Thursday night,

everything's fine,

Except you've got that look in your eyes,

when I'm telling a story

And you find it boring your thinking of something to say.

You'll go along with and then drop it

And you Humiliate me, in front of our friends.

Then I'll use that voice what you find annoyin'

And say something like

"intelligent input darlin' why don't you just go and have another beer then?"

Then you call me a bitch and everyone we're with will be embarrassed,

and I won't give a shit.

My fingertips are holding onto the

cracks in our foundations,

and I know that I should let go,

but I can't.

And everytime we fight I know its not right,

everytime that your upset and I smile

I know I should forget, but I can't.

You said I must eat so many lemons,

'cause I am so bitter.

I said "I'd rather be with your friends mate,

cause they are much fitter"

Yes it was childish

and you got aggressive

and I must admit that I was a bit scared,

but it gives me thrills to wind you up.

My fingertips are holding onto the

Cracks in our foundations,

and I know that I should let go,

but I can't.

And everytime we fight,

I know its not right,

every time that your upset and I smile,

I know I should forget,

but I can't.

Your face is pasty,

'Cause you've gone and got so wasted,

what a surprise,

don't want to look at your face,

'cause its making me sick.

You've gone and got sick on my trainers,

I only got these Yesterday.

Oh my gosh, I cannot be bothered with this.

Well I'll leave you there till the mornin',

and I purposely won't turn the heating on

and dear God, I hope I'm not stuck with this one.

My fingertips are holding onto the

Cracks in our foundations,

and I know that I should let go,

but I can't.

And everytime we fight,

I know its not right,

every time that your upset and I smile,

I know I should forget,

but I can't.

And every time we fight I know it's not right,

every time that you're upset and I smile.

I know I should forget, but I can't.

These are not happy lyrics yet I couldn't help but sit on that bus grinning and thinking that who cares if it's pouring on my wide open saturday afternoon! I listened to Kate Nash all weekend and I'm pretty sure I never stopped smiling. Give it a listen.

I know that after tonight, you don't have to look up at the stars...

I started a Dave Diet yesterday: Listening to ridiculous amounts of Dave Matthews until I am well versed or sick of it. It's only a partial diet though because I am currently infatuated with a burned cd I came across full of The Classic Crime and Cinematic Sunrise on it and I can't seem to spend a day without sampling it a little. So far though I am loving Dave and I'm not quite sure how I ever lived without all of these killer tunes... I decided the same thing about netflix today as well!

This weekend was kind of a bust... I freaked out this week because I am flat broke and I was starving and bored and had no money for the bus and so my mom put some money into the bank for me (even though I told her not to because I truly did not want her money) and I am now fed and have a bus pass. 

I went over to Ashley's  last night and stopped for a pumpkin spice latte at starbucks on the way. It was delicious! We decided we wanted to make cupcakes so we found a recipe and a few extra ingredients... tequila and key lime... Ashley was out of flour so we went to walgreens to pick some up and stopped back at starbucks to try the pumpkin spice frappucino. EVEN BETTER!!!  I love Fall and Halloween time because of all things pumpkiny:

Pumpkin Pie

Pumpkin Lattes and Frapps at Starbucks

Pumpkin Bread at Caribou Coffee

Pumpkin Doughnuts at Uncle John's

Pumpkin Delights from the lovely Little Debbie

Pumpkin Carving

Pumpkin seeds

Pumpkin patches

Pumpkin "candy corn"

and finally

Pumpkin candies half chocolate half crunchy peanut butter wrapped in foil with pumpkin faces on top that have been discontinued for like 2 flipping years!!!! Whoever made that decision should be stuffed into a meat grinder alive!

Back to the cupcakes... I got to sift the flour and dump it into the mixer and that is where my cooking ended. I decided I wanted to make decorations for the cupcakes so I got out the gumpaste (wikipedia definition at the bottom Gordon) and started creating. Naturally my love for the holidays had me making a jack-o-lantern and from there I decided to make a cupcake for all 6 of the major holidays: Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, Easter, and the 4th of July. The pictures are on facebook duh!

This week... work as usual and a few extra hours and money in my pocket! I have a quiz tomorrow AM in my math class and my first homework assignment in oceanography on Wednesday so this will be the beginning of: Krista Marie Genius: The Road to a 4.0

Gumpaste: Edible clay-like dough made by combining glycerin, gum Arabic and icing sugar and used to mold edible flowers and figures. Gum paste can also be rolled extremely thin and used to make intricate ribbons and lacework as well as delicate flower petals.

Why aren't you sorry? Why aren't you sorry? Why...

It's been almost 2 months. Let's go back...

June recap:  1. Went back to work at Domino's

                       2. Took up bad tennis playing with Add

                       3. Bought a new bike and rode my legs useless

July: The girls camping trip went pretty well but I would definitely say I prefer camping with Mommy and Doug... Its funny how the two city girls are better campers/fire builders/packers than the two country girls! July was also spent working at Domino's only once or twice a week but it was more money than having no job at all! 

August: I applied for a bajillion different loans with my mom as a cosigner... I spent a lot of time mapping out my debt, time spent in school, time left until I finish, and of course what the hell am I going to be doing this year? 

D-Day... after being rejected for loan after loan after loan and being denied a signature from Steve Kildea Mommy and I went over to Holly to have a chat with Him and Dawn. When we told them what was going to happen if I couldn't get a loan Dawn kept saying how sorry she was that they couldn't cosign (couldn't they have at least tried?)and Steve just reiterated the fact that I will just have to forget school and get a job. 

The kicker: They can't cosign because Steve is currently jobless and Dawn is already tied up in Jon's loans and what happens in 10 years if they need to get a new car or a new house and they have this open line of credit... YOU HAVE A BRAND NEW TRAILBLAZER AND THE NICEST MODULAR HOME I'VE EVER SEEN!!!  unkick... 

The "decision": Krista will return to Chicago to work for the Vaheys and get a second job in order to scrape enough money to pay cheap rent and a hefty loan payment. Do I even have to say I spent the hour long ride home crying and staring out the window at my life, dreams, and future flying away? Didn't think so.

I was in contact with the Vaheys setting up my job and trying to find something else while trying to figure out if I could benefit from taking a class at a city college so I always have my toes in academia and trying to find somewhere to live. At first I was emailing all of the ads posted by females or male undergrads with rooms for rent. Apparently nobody at the University of Chicago can handle living with a 20 year old college drop out. After a stressful period of searching and the threat of being homeless came about I started checking on the rest of the ads: male grad students, PHD candidates, and businessmen.  I got in touch with a guy who I assumed was a grad student and was so excited to find a place that I didn't care to know anything but how much money I needed to send to hold the room and when I could move in. 

My mom got the results back from the parent PLUS loan she applied for (so she would be denied and I could get another $5000 loan from the feds) and Kicker #2: Approved... 20 year old with excellent credit and mommy cosigner denied. Bankrupt mommy alone, Approved! And so Krista gets fucked again. 

I got onto the Columbia admissions site and started doing the math and looked into my past loans to see what their deferment rules are. In order to keep my loans deferred I need to be enrolled in school at least part time... which equals 6 or more credit hours. I figured out that I can get enough federal loans to cover 5 credit hours. My mom applies again for a PLUS loan, this time for Columbia and only for 15 large, and is approved. 

The new decision: Krista will take two classes at Columbia which is basically covered by federal loans. Mommy will take out the 15 large (all while hoping the bankruptcy court doesn't hear about it and take her house) which will cover rent for the year. Krista will work for the Vaheys and other various families on the weekends and get another job for the mornings and save all of that money to cover rent for the next year and hopefully another class each semester.

September: I moved back to Chicago on August 30th and mommy and Doug stayed through Monday the 1st since they were both on vacation for our planned Boston trip. I got 25 hours in this week with a family in the city and start working for the Vaheys on Monday. I am setting up a meeting with another woman who needs someone to sit in the morning and will hopefully have all of my time filled with work. I am settled in now, getting used to not living in the city and falling asleep to the Sears Tower, and waiting impatiently for the day when I can go to school full time again.

The Roommate: MC is his name. He was born in India and makes Indian food for dinner every night so the apartment constantly smells gross. Indian food is my favorite food though so I know how to deal with the smell. my mom took it upon herself to ask questions and this is the info: He was born in India and moved to the U.S. 20 years ago and went to Duke. I'm pretty sure he meant he came here for the purpose of going to Duke and not moved here and also went to Duke later on like I hoped. This information ages him at about 38 years old. He told my mom he is starting/has started his own business in consulting, on what we don't know, and works mainly from the apartment on his computer and occasionally in clients' offices. He also mentioned that he travels A LOT!! He will be gone most of October, February, and March so yippee for me having my own place for a while! He's extremely nice and helpful and besides the basic chats in passing and whatnot we both keep to ourselves and all is good. 

Tell me how I'm supposed to breath with no air...

Chicago... Here I come... 

Boston... I hope you enjoy your 7 grand...

Steve Kildea... Thanks for helping me waste 75 thousand bones...

Krista... Have fun paying back two wasted years...

Real World... Help me find a way to do this...

She works hard for the money...

10. One hour back at Domino's and I'm already hooked! I love the job, the people, the food, and the overall atmosphere. I went in last night to do the nightly inventory and Luke told me it takes him about 30 minutes. My first time doing it... 50minutes!!! I was proud of myself and I am excited to go in tomorrow and have my first shift running experience!

9. Gordon's birthday bash was a blast! A ton of cool people were there. My fave find of the night was John's buddy Danny. Super cool dude, looked like TMV, and kept the hookah under control (which is usually Johns job). No details... (you already know them!)... but it was a goo time with some fun people new and old!

8. Add, Jack and I met Kim's BF today. He's just too damn old. He seemed nice even though I didn't really talk to him or even attempt to act like I wanted to. I didn't do it on purpose, he just seemed too mature for me to chat it up with. I had fun singing and dancing with Add.

7. The tennis is coming along nicely. Add and I are going to play tomorrow night after work and hopefully we will be able to keep a nice volley going for more than 4 hits...

6. I watched Bourne Ultimatum tonight with Kendra and Julie. It was a killer movie! I want to see the first two now!!!! Mike and Christopher showed up later and we all hung out for a bit before parting ways.

5. The garage sale this weekend went nicely. I made 70 bones on Friday and 65 on Saturday. I was totally cool with making all that cash from a bunch of stuff I don't need or want anymore.

4. Girls Camping Trip kicks off Wednesday night when we get together to pack the car!! Thursday morning we are on the road and off to the beach for the day before we have to set up the tent! Woohoo for melanoma!

3. I am extremely tired. I have had a hookah hangover all day and my eyes and head hurt from my allergies. It feels like I've been crying for a week. My eyes just want to close and never open again!! AHHHH...

2. I bought a new bike today!! Who's ready for bike rides?!!

1. This post has far too many updates in the form of random rambling. Also, sorry for the missing sense of a timeline as I tend to jump from day to day and then back a week and then to the present again... I'm just not feeling the time thing. Time is lame.

If you'd just realize what I just realized...

WHAT???!!! It's been how long since I've updated WormSongs?! Well here I am! I guess we'll do this in topic paragraph/sentence form yeah?

Memorial Day Weekend: I had a ton of fun at my Aunt and Uncle's Place! We had pizza hut one night and the most delicious burgers the other nights. Austin got to fly his new Mackinaw kite and landed it on top of the high school so we had to drag it down and sure enough it was broken. Aussie and I also made a slip and slide with a tarp and the spray setting on the hose. Tater, the amazingly obese purebred chocolate lab, found it fun as well. We watched the cassopolis Memorial Day Parade where my aunt and uncle knew EVERYBODY... things like that happen when you live in a town just slightly bigger than Vernon. 

Back In Chicago: I got home from my long weekend and Cat met me outside my building with my keys. She went upstairs with me in case Megan was there... Let's face it, I had a week left and I definitely didn't want any confrontation now! Cat hung out for a few minutes and the trekked a block away to her new place. How sucky is that? I am moving in a week and now Cat lives a block away... BUMMER!!! My last week in Chicago was a blast. I got to sit for one of my occasional families and both girls were really sad to see me go. One of them gave me half of her friendship rock and the other was actually really good for me when I put her to bed. The family gave me a nice card and some goodbye money and then payed me extra well when I left that night.  I also made sure to hit up Clarke's this week ad managed to order everything on the menu that is in my rotation when I go there... I ate Clarke's for breakfast and lunch the next day!

Vaheys: The Vaheys took me out to dinner Thursday night and gifted me with cards and goodbye money and some killer pictures that Ellie drew for me. Friday sucked!!! David had a playdate for a bit so Ellie and I decided to take an extra-long walk (extra-long for kids at least) and so we walked over to the beach and snapped a bunch of pictures and collected some mighty cool shells. We even picked up some shells to give to David since he wasn't with us. I went to soccer practice with them that night because I had too much stuff to lug onto the train to my place so I waited there for my mom to pick me up.  When she got there I was bombarded with hugs from the kids and when I finally got into the truck to leave my mom was on her own figuring out how to get out of Hyde Park because I was busy staring at them out the window. I cried the whole way back to my place...

Friday Night: My mom and I got to my place only to find that the leasing office closed early so I wasn't able to get a parking pass.... FUCK!!!! They tow every night so we sure as hell weren't going to park there anyway. The only other indoor parking garage close to us told my mom the truck is too big so we had to settle for outdoor and hope the truck was still there in the morning, still had all of it's components, and that it didn't rain! Well... no sooner did I meet my mom at the parking lot to walk to dinner with her and it starts pouring! We got to dinner soaking wet and Cat and her friend Rob just laughed and offered us some guacamole. We had our dinner and then hurried back to my place to change clothes and fix hair and makeup before my goodbye shindig began. It was a sucky turnout I'd say. My most important friends were there I guess... Cat, Ash, and Shelli... but after awhile megan, ronnie, and danielle locked themselves in megans room and had their own party and Adam and Glenn never came, and Gian was working too late to come... it was fun but I really really would have liked to see Adam one more time. The party ended I went and jumped in my tiny bed with my mom. 

Goodbye Chicago/Hello Owosso: I woke up to my mom's loud snoring... she ended up moving to the floor and I swear it never got dark that night because I woke up at 4 am feeling all ice a refreshed and ready to go! WTF??!!! We packed everything up and loaded the truck and then we met Cat and Rob for one last brunch at Yolk. It was delicious and we had the best waiter ever and it was sad to leave Cat when we parted at the corner... Mom and I went upstairs to grab shades and purses and then headed off to Navy Pier to ride bikes. We went on a 3 hour long bike tour of the northern lakeshore area, which was mainly Lincoln park, and had a fun time (especially when mary fell off her bike and the one asian lady in the group came over to her with a road rash kit... of course the asians are fucking prepared for their bike trip...). After our bike trip we hustled into Build-a-Bear and I made a goodbye Chicago bear. Well, she's really more of a summer beach babe bear but whatever.  We took the water taxi back to the aquarium and walked into my apartment for the last time. I cleaned out Pig's cage, vacuumed the room, and we left Chicago. I was awake for awhile and then I must've fallen asleep since i woke up as we were going by Kalamazoo... I got home, enjoyed seeing Owosso, gave Princess a nice pet down, unloaded the truck, and was off to see the boys! I hung out with Gordon, John, and Josh and we hookahed a lot. End of story. The boys were drunk, we smoked 2 bowls in the barn, I had one drink so we could play kings, and then we had another bowl in the house. It was really awesome seeing the boys again so soon and I drove home and fell asleep pretty pumped!

Home Sweet Home: Since coming home, I have been with Addy every day (Addy is my Owosso Cat and Cat is my Chicago Addy) and we have done too many thing to even think about. I'm sure typing this section will take me quite some time... We hung out when I got home, we hung out thursday night at and after bowling when barb was doing hair at my place, we hung out Friday night of Curwood since I had Cha, Hannah, and Logan and the kids parade got cancelled. We ended up playing ping pong, foosball, and twister in Jeanette's basement. Later I gave the kids back to barb and picked my drunk birthday girl mom up from Jumbo's and took her home. Addy, Jeanette, and I went to see Kung Foo Panda, which was hilarious, and then once again I went home to bed... I spent Saturday with my mom and Doug at pancake breakfast and the craft area and watching the parade. I talked to add that day but she had to work so i didn't see her at all. I watched the bands at curwood, saw Jessica Justice and Nick Bruckman, and my night got super fun when I met up with Thom Kimble and we walked around Curwood to see all the "fun" people and to catch up on the past couple years! Jason and John called me and were bored so they met us in the parking lot at my car and we dropped Thom off at home and went to Teal's for a party. I had been home for a week and it was basically nonstop! The next week I spent by the pool with addy. We got killer tans and hardcore vacuumed the pool out so it was swimmable the next day! Mike Called me Monday night on his way home from training the lifeguards at Girl Scout Camp and told me all about the canoe trip that him and Lassiter would be taking that week. I was going to pick them up on Friday in Bay City but I got a call Thursday night (I was hardcore asleep at like 9pm...) and woke up Friday morning remembering a call and that maybe they were already home and something about hooters... or maybe i dreamt it?? I talked to mike and yes they were home and had went to Hooters on their way back. That was last week. 

This Week: I have been with Add every day. We have started taking 4-5 mile walks in the AM or PM and then I have been getting ready for a garage sale. Last night we walked to Emerson and attempted to pay Tennis. We both suck really bad but it was fun so we will keep practicing!

This Weekend: FUN FUN FUN this weekend I have my garage sale Friday and Saturday mornings, Frankenmuth Friday night, and Gordon's Birthday bash on Saturday night. I'm EXTREMELY bummed that I can't go to Cat's g=for the Camp Rock party on Friday night but i'd have to leave my sale early, and miss Zehnders, and then leave Cat's early because I have to be here to open up the sale Saturday morning. I'm bummed but there's not a whole lot I can do... Tonight, by the way, I am having a fire at my place complete with smores and hookah and then Add, Heather, and I are having a slumber party here because we are girls and that's what girls do!

SOOOOOOOOOOO That's been my life the past month and it will only get more exciting  this summer!

P.S... I am working at Domino's again! This time as a Shift Runner/Shift manager!!!! I go in today to do some training! I'm pumped!

Pictures on my facebook: 

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I don't think you're ready for this jelly...

I don't think you're ready for this jelly. I don't think you're ready for this... My body's too bellylicious!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Ok now something has to be done about this whole cracking myself up thing. I've been doing it a lot lately. This is not an update on my long fun weekend. This is a pledge...

I, Krista Marie Kildea, will not get my hair colored by Aunt Barb or any other stylist until my bellylicious body is down to a size 8 jeans. 

You heard it here first. Size 8 and I will celebrate with a nice new jet black 'do.

Last night a dj saved my life...

I know this is completely against all of my wormsongs rules but Jack did it on myspace and said I was most likely to repost it. I have cut out a few questions because they are irrelevant. 

When I get drunk, I: 
get funny and flirty! (this was Jack's answer but we are basically drunk twins so I'll keep it)

Do you talk about Religion or Deep meaning thoughts?
not that I know of

Do you Cry? 
nope

Do you get Angry? 
nope

Do you Vomit? 
Actually, that's usually my goal!

After 7 beers are you drunk? 
Beer makes me puke on contact. I'm sure 7 would knock me down though.

After 1 shot of 151 you are? 
I've never had 151...

Your favorite drink is?
Bahama Mama!!

Tequila does what to you? 
makes me want to cut of my tastebuds... grossss!!

Whiskey makes you? 
I'm not too big on the whiskey. I do like the effect it has on Ward though!

Who do you drink with? 
My friends and Mary!

Vodka makes you? 
pretty happy on occasion!

Do you smoke when you drink?
sometimes but I am kicking that this summer!

On the rocks or straight up? 
depends on the drink

Do you Pass Out? 
Often!

Do you drink girly drinks? 
Almost always! Bahama mamas and smirnoff coolers are the best but then there's always rum and coke!!

Do you drink alone? 
most definitely not.

Worst Drink you have ever had? 
one that Heidi makes... it's about 25/75 mixer/booze

Do you play drinking games? 
I love them when I can pay attention long enough!

Drunk Phone Calls to people? 
occasionally... Mike made me call people one night when he had to mom me at the cross house.

Drink and Drive?
No.

What is your favorite beer? 
the non-existent kind!

What is your favorite mixed drink? 
Bahama Mama!!!!!

What is your favorite shot? 
I'm not much for shots anymore. I used to like bacardi limon shots but I guess I'm kind of a fan of buttery nipples now.

What will you NOT drink? 
beer

Are you a lightweight? 
depends...

Do you like the drinks with the little umbrellas? 
who doesn't?!

Do you ever drink Bacardi Silver? 
Anything bacardi is at the top of my list!

Do you like frozen drinks?
of course!

Do you drink liquor straight? 
not usually

Do you ever drink out of the bottle? 
if the drink comes that way yes. I like to drink my drinks out of large cups or jars or 2 liter bottles...

Have you ever had a jagerbomb? 
nope

Are you drunk right now? 
not a chance

Do you consume more than 2 alcoholic beverages a day? 
only when I'm partying!

Do you drink a lot of wine? 
no wine is kind of uh... GROSS! It tastes like soap!

When is the last time you drank?
Mother's day weekend!

Have you ever thrown up from drinking?
often!

Ever done a Keg Stand? 
no because that involves beer.

Ever been streaking while drinking? 
no but I often run around in my underwear...

Failed any college courses due to alcohol alone?
haha no!

Aren't things more easy with a tight six pack?...

News Worthy of Front Page Space!

1. Ok maybe not front page... Today is day two of Papier Mache with David and Ellie! We will be adding another layer to our forms and hopefully not boiling over to paste twice like last time. What a mess to clean up! We'll probably be adding two more layers Tuesday and Wednesday and painting and decorating on Thursday! Pictures will be posted when it's all finished!

2. My new signature dish: Fruit and Yogurt! Simple, yes but also extremely delicious! Last Wednesday I stayed late and had dinner with the kids. We made frozen pizzas and I was searching for some sort of vegetable to give them... NOTHING! So I cut up some fruit and I saw that there was a thing of vanilla yogurt in the fridge. I've always heard that vanilla yogurt is a good substitute for fruit dips and of course it's how you make fruit and yogurt parfait duh! So i took it a step further and mixed it all up together and came out with my own version of a waldorf salad! I am addicted so this will be the dish I bring to all family get togethers!!

3. The Vaheys are going to Michigan this weekend! They are leaving Early Friday, around 3 and not coming home until Monday night. Why on earth is this so exciting? It's taking away two of the 10 days I have left with them!! Well you see... Friday I will go get the kids from school and be done at 3. I will still get paid for the full day and Monday is a paid holiday! I am even more happy because I will get to go to my aunt Jill's house for the weekend!!! I called her today and she said that Uncle Larry, Aunt Lynn, and Lissy will also be there so we will have a terrific time! Yay for weekend get aways!!

You say I must eat so many lemons...

In case you just can't wait until tomorrow here are the topics of my day:

1. Papier Mache

After the last two big projects I have done with David and Ellie and how much they've enjoyed doing them (kids being so excited about our flowers sprouting, Lisa's voicemail to me almost in tears because she was so happy about the mothers day story and telling me how I really really should become a teacher) I was having a hard time finding a new task for us to work on for the next week.  I finally decided on Papier mache. Originally we were going to make masks and use balloons for our forms but then I realized that the concept of having to make edges of the mask would be too difficult for David. Let's just make full heads I said! So, yesterday the kids and I started our newest project making papier mache heads. It is a messy messy project so if you feel like attempting it proceed with the greatest caution!

2. ok go

Manifest was yesterday.  I had to work so I was kind of bummed because I couldn't see any of the performances during the day but it was alright in the end when I got to see ok go. All I knew was they had something to do with treadmills and my friend Lisa told me they put on a really fun show so I met with Kristin and we saw ok go! She introduced me to her parents and a few of her friends from her improv class at school.

3. New friends, Clarke's, and IO

So after meeting a few of Kristin's friends who were all pretty killer we started to walk away from the park and decided we wanted to hang out and go somewhere since our u-passes would expire today. Kaz, an exchange student from London, wanted to go to rock and roll McDonalds and coldstone creamery which apparently is located right down the street from mcDs.  We all got on the train and realized that since the redline was elevated we wouldn't be able to get off at the correct stop. Kristin, being as amazing as she is, suggested that we go to Clarke's instead!! Good idea Kristin!!! Kaz had never been there and neither had Al/El (some other dude who was with us) so we thought it was extremely necessary that we change our course and hit up Clarke's. So Clarke's was fun and all but nothing super exciting happened... I ordered chicken strips, sweet potato fries with mayo, and a strawberry shake as usual and yeah that's all for Clarke's.  Kristin then noticed that it was only 1115 and that the Improv Jam at IO started at 12 and suggested that we go there next. I was super pumped because we've been hoping to see "Improv Baby" again and we figured he'd be there. No such luck! He wasn't there and the show wasn't very good this time around. The end.

4. Train ride from IO

I'll make this as short as possible. The four of us got on the train to head home along with these two fellas, one of which was trashed and looking for a bottle opener for his 40 of Heineken. We sat down in the four seats facing each other and the dudes sat in the two seats on either side of the train closest to us.  The drunk guy started chatting up Kaz about her accent, which was discussed in great length that is was actually a dialect, and she seemed cool with it and chatted with him and fed him some interesting thoughts. They got on the topic of religion and not believing in god which led to the dude saying that you just gotta believe in yourself and all this shit. The conversation then moved to MLK Jr. and the I have a Dream speech, which Kaz backed up the foreigners by saying that he basically stole the speech from some ABBA lyrics! The guys friend was obviously kind of embarrassed by his friend and just sat quietly in his seat giggling now and again.  Eventually the conversation got pretty damn funny and the guy was all like, "haha man i love you" and kaz laughed a little. SOme random topic came up and somehow got to the man saying that when a dude tells a girl her loves her he's just trying to get with her. Kaz quickly brought up the fact that he just said this very thing to her and he was like oh no man I just meant i really love talking to you on this train. It was just a funny fucking train ride. Kaz and Kristin got off at Monroe and then the guy chatted me up for a second and got only my lovely responses like: right, uh huh, apparently, maybe... He said "I'm Christian" and tried to shake my hand. I said, " ooh I'm not much of a shaker dude" and he felt pretty shot down. He then asked my name and I said I wasn't sure what my name was for the night. His friend giggled a bit more and said his name was Enrique. Enrique and I both got off the train at roosevelt.

5. Could I maybe call you sometime?

I get off the train and make my way down the stairs and out the turn-style and off to the corner. I got to the corner and I hear yelling "hey!! Hey!! hey!!" I kept walking and the heys continued so I turned around. Fucking Enrique was yelling after me! I thought maybe he needed directions or a phone or something so i decided to be nice and waited for him to run up to me. "Uh, I was wondering if maybe I could call you sometime?".... ahahahahaha no fucking way did he just say that... it was too funny because he had this really shy and unsure voice and I felt a little bad for him... "yeah, probably not man"... "oh you got a  boyfriend?" .... "yeah, yeah, uh huh, sorry"... I am not usually too quick on my toes with excuses and comebacks but he set me up with the BF question. I answered in a way that would make him not question my answer and obviously it worked. I walked away and started cracking up. Then I got home and went to bed.

Too much funny for one day... earlier in the evening i saw a couple of cross dressers on the train, really ugly men who made even uglier women... the night just kept getting better!

I'm about to lose control and I think I like it!!!

WOOHOO!!! Dichterliebe analysis done! I finished last night before I went to sleep and now today I just feel like a whole new person! I no longer hate school and I think the rest of these two weeks will go by just fine. Apparently that paper was one huge sack of bricks in my bag because now I just feel like playing and scooting with the kids and just going crazy! 

I can't wait to be back in Michigan for the summer!!! Camping, UP, parties, taco house, ice cream, and my friends!!! It's coming quick. 24 days to be exact. May 31st in the later evening I will be home and so far I have no plans until Sunday so I'm up for grabs for Saturday night anything! 

 Owosso, be prepared for hurricane Krista. You will be left completely rocked!

Go on just say it, you need me like a bad habit...

Wow 10:45 already?? I don't feel like I have been productive at all today... I had a really good day listening to a bunch of really good music, specifically Taking Back Sunday. I listened on the 45 minutes bus ride to work and 15 minute walk from the bus and they are now on shuffle on the i pod while I procrastinate some more. Ellie, David, and I finished the book we have been making for mothers day. I just have to get it all printed out and ready to take to kinkos for binding. 

Yesterday I took a nice LOOONG walk and skipped out on my planned weight training. Today I skipped both. TOmorrow the plan is to walk double and add weight training to the schedule. I also have my Dichterliebe analysis paper due Thursday and I am having A LOT of trouble with it. Starting it seems to be the hardest part right now. Getting three pages of even half decent analysis is going to another mountain. It is my goal tonight to at least turn of TBS and turn on Dichterliebe and get two pages written. Hopefully I will get it completely finished but at least 2 pages of it is a start.

Honestly, this post serves no purpose but to help me procrastinate some more and possibly knock down a previous post a little further... To the land of theory I go..........

All that I know is I'm breathing...

Summer 2008 Goals/Plans

1. Walk 5-7 days a week

2. Get a tan!

3. Relax by the pool

4. Have the best girls camping trip EVER!

5. No fighting with Doug while in the UP

6. Continue to eat healthy

7. Take any job I am offered

8. Visit my Dad at least twice a month

9. Walk Princess on the days I don't "walk"

10. Learn to play my guitar!

11. Study for Berklee

12. Hang out with Mike!!!

13. Hang out with Gordon and Co. 10 million times!

After leaving class this morning I decided that since it is approximately 700 degrees outside I would take a nice long walk. I just got home from my walk, 4.5 miles, up Michigan and back, and I feel killer! I could feel the sun beating down on me which means I will probably be a little burnt tomorrow but then tan the next day! It also means that I am wearing summer clothes and flip flops to work and you know what that means for tomorrow morning... SHOWER FOOTPRINTS!!!!! Today will not be wasted!

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep...

I've been thinking lately that I've been thinking too much. I am currently in a state of "like"... you know like? Like, "like like" kind of like. At least I think I am. See what I mean? I think through things too much sometimes and I have a hard time taking chances. Maybe it's because the times that I don't think and I take chances I have been let down? Who knows... Right now all I know is that I'm pretty sure I like you. We've always known this but I guess now I'm kind of saying it so you can hear it instead of just telling myself but holding back because I'm thinking once again...

Let's hang out 10 million times I said... I'm quite aware that that's not possible but what about 10 million minutes? That's 166,667 hours which is 6945 days and that makes about 232 months and almost 20 years. Damn! That's longer than most marriages!! So maybe 10 million seconds?? Let's try this again... 166667 minutes, 2778 hours, 116 days, about 4 months... So I guess it's not possible to hang out for 10 million anythings over the course of a summer... bummer dude because 10 million is a nice sounding number.

Then all at once you have to say goodbye...

Vocal Juries...

1. Nose and throat were fine all morning.

2. Went into the concert hall smiling and confident.

3. Introduced my first piece, "Never is a Promise" by Fiona Apple and counted Miguel in.

4. Sang the wrong verse... not melodically the same as the first...

5. Had to restart the song after not being able to find my footing.

6. Drug through the song because Miguel apparently decided that he was waiting for me when in fact I was waiting for the damn chord changes.

7. Throat phlegms up... right at the chorus... try moving between head and chest voice when that happens... no squeeks or breaks, just phlegmy sounding...

8. Guest adjudicator is a Jazz vocalist and needed help choosing my next piece. 

9. Derek suggested Foolish Games, Ellen said no... how about Hear Me? It has a rock feel.

10. Hear Me went pretty damn awesome.

11. Back home, pissed, hating myself...

There's a first time for everything. Why does my first time messing up have to be last time I sing at Columbia? Why does it have to be when I am trying to perform my best for a final grade and possibly an invitation to sing at Singers Showcase??

Well Columbia, I guess that was my sucky goodbye.

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

It's that time of year again. It's warm outside, some days a little too warm and others it's just right for taking off the cardigan, and I'm wearing my flip-flops like they are going out of style!! Now with the wearing of the flips something else happens, something else really gross but it makes it quite clear what the weather has been like... After playing outside all day with David and Ellie I come home and do whatever and then go to bed. No shower at night for me. Are you starting to see where I"m going?? In the AM I just into the nice warm shower (as long as it's not tuesday or thursday) and what is it that I see when I look down??? No not my naked ass body... black footprints on the white bathtub!!! It's sandal season which also means it's dirty feet season. I've noticed that when I walk down the street I sometimes look at people's feet if they are wearing flip flops and if they aren't dirty like mine I get really pissed off and wonder what the hell the have been doing to avoid the gray staining dirt... JERKS!!!

Actually, similar to my drinking theories (if I puke before bed it was a good night!), I believe that if I come home wiht clean feet while wearing my flips then something is wrong. I obviously wasn't playing hard enough which also leads me to believe that I wasted the whole damn day no matter home many listening assignments or or home much theory homework I actually did. 

NO DIRT = WASTED DAY

You are stellar...

I am learning my first song on the guitar. The guitar part is really easy and is the same thing over and over but singing and playing it extra hard!!

"The Nicest Thing"

Kate Nash

All I know is that you're so nice

You're the nicest thing I've seen

I wish that we could give it a go

See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl

I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world

I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile

I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out

But you always wanna know what I was about

I wish you'd hold my hand

When I was upset

I wish you'd never forget

The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot

That you loved secretly

'Cause it was on a hidden bit

That nobody else could see

Basically, I wish that you loved me

I wish that you needed me

I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,

Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break

I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn't eat

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen

And I wish that we could see if we could be something

Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you...